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Tucker and Justice Van Allen - part 8

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Rest In Peace sweet Justice.  You are cherished.

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Oh Cindy, I'm so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts. :broken_heart:

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Cindy,

My heart is breaking with yours.  I am so very, very sorry.  Godspeed Justice as he goes to play with Tucker.  Many hugs and prayers of strength for you my dear friend.  :broken_heart: :broken_heart::broken_heart:

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:magicmoon:  Love you, Cindy.  Thank you for all of the love and kindness you have shown over all of these years.   You are not alone.  You are never alone. :animcnda_lg:

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I see my little boy in every room ,,but he's not with me and it's killing me.

Nancy told me that holding Lucky is what got her through the loss of Sadie a few months ago. But I hold him, and he doesn't lick my tears away or look at me with big brown eyes...like Justie would...and Lucky isn't mine.

Thank u everyone for ur kind words. I love u all, but need a little more time.

hugs to all.

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Cindy and her Angels Tucker and Justice

   Your boys will always be close by you, watching over you and loving you. They will send you signs to let you know that they are close by. 

Sending you lots of love and scratchy kitty kisses

 

Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

 

 

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 All of ur posts from different times here at IMOM in Justie's life-angels and friends past and present have come to give support and I feel so blessed to have u all on this heartbreaking journey.

I do want to tell u abt the compassion shown last Wednesday at MedVet, but not quite yet.

I did receive 2 small clay paw prints of Justice in the mail today. They also sent 2 ink paw prints. I knew getting them would be emotional, but I wasn't quite prepared for the absolute heartache I felt. I will cherish them always, but it's hard to not feel the grief.:broken_heart:

We have an ice storm and then anywhere from 4"-16" (depends on the hour) of snow arriving tmw through Saturday. There is definitely a chance of power outages, but hopefully I will be able to get on before that happens...if it happens.

Thanks so much friends.:heart:

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:heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:

     Sending you lots of love to help you through these difficult days. 

You are surrounded by love and Angels

Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

          

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45 minutes ago, Beauty's Kathy said:

:heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:

     Sending you lots of love to help you through these difficult days. 

You are surrounded by love and Angels

Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

          

Thanks Kathy, I need all the angels i can get right now. Just can't seem to find my way through this. I know my boyz are watching over me, but my heart just aches that I can't hold and snuggle with them.:broken_heart:

Justie, being special needs (like Tuck), took so much care that I constantly feel I am supposed to be doing something, and then it breaks my heart remembering.

Kathy thanks so much for ur love and kind words. Thanks everyone.

Our ice storm has begun so we may lose power:unsure:

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40 minutes ago, k9sign said:

Thanks Kathy, I need all the angels i can get right now. Just can't seem to find my way through this. I know my boyz are watching over me, but my heart just aches that I can't hold and snuggle with them.:broken_heart:

Justie, being special needs (like Tuck), took so much care that I constantly feel I am supposed to be doing something, and then it breaks my heart remembering.

Kathy thanks so much for ur love and kind words. Thanks everyone.

Our ice storm has begun so we may lose power:unsure:

Cindy,

I know the feeling. When Duncan was gone, I felt so lost for what to do. He (and my diabetic dog years ago) consumed so much of my time, and my schedule revolved around their meds and Duncan's tube feedings, and when they were gone it seemed I had so much time on my hands (that I didn't want to have). And I still have 3 dogs and a cat to comfort me.

Know that I read this forum every day, and think of you and your boys every day. Praying for comfort and peace for you.

Judy G

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....been thinking so much of you Cindy. My  heart is still breaking and crying for you. I know how you seeing the foot print MedVet sent to you. Doc had a print made from Max's tiny  foot..I keep it on my dresser and still have a hard time believing he was so tiny and has been gone so long.

 

Please know that even though I don't post often, you are always in my heart.

Peace, Love & Blessings

Jo, Gidge, Angels Mike & Max

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On 1/12/2018 at 3:32 PM, Judy G said:

Cindy,

I know the feeling. When Duncan was gone, I felt so lost for what to do. He (and my diabetic dog years ago) consumed so much of my time, and my schedule revolved around their meds and Duncan's tube feedings, and when they were gone it seemed I had so much time on my hands (that I didn't want to have). And I still have 3 dogs and a cat to comfort me.

Know that I read this forum every day, and think of you and your boys every day. Praying for comfort and peace for you.

Judy G

Thanks so much Judy. Before I read ur post, but saw ur name, I immediately thought of Duncan. I know he took a lot of care for a long time. Just dealing with the feeding tube would be so time consuming. But, yes, we would do it all again to have our boys back in our arms.

This is the first time since I became an adult that I don't have a dog. When I lost my mini, Higgins, I didn't have a dog- but Tuck was coming in 2 weeks (when he would finally be 8 weeks old), so I knew I would have a puppy soon. I just need someone to need me and I need them. What I really want is my Justie, but of course that can't happen. Gosh I have been so blessed with my boyz. People might wonder how I could be blessed having such special needs puppers since they were young. But their sweetness. personality, courage and silliness taught me abt life in so many ways. I was so lucky...

Your words do comfort me. Thank u. hugs.

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23 hours ago, MikesMom said:

....been thinking so much of you Cindy. My  heart is still breaking and crying for you. I know how you seeing the foot print MedVet sent to you. Doc had a print made from Max's tiny  foot..I keep it on my dresser and still have a hard time believing he was so tiny and has been gone so long.

 

Please know that even though I don't post often, you are always in my heart.

Peace, Love & Blessings

Jo, Gidge, Angels Mike & Max

I never have been given an ink foot print or clay paw print with any of my puppers. I wish all vet practices would offer to make them. As hard as it was to receive, it is also very special.

Thanks Jo for ur thoughts and prayers. hugs

 

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Back to more snow again tmw.  I guess many of us are in the deep freeze again too.

I miss snuggling with Justie when he got cold...

Thanks so much friends.:heart:

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Snow has been falling like crazy today. Tears have been falling like crazy today too. Monday's are hard becuz Justie and I always went down to MedVet together. I tried to stay busy today by cleaning my room, but that brought the heartache that I didn't have to move any of Justie's beds on the floor (he had 3-he was like Goldilocks becuz he would go into each bed, and maybe that day it wasn't the one he wanted, so he would climb in another bed. Every time I would think abt taking a bed out he would suddenly lay in that bed more often-my silly boy).

Thanks friends.:heart:

 

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Hi Cindy and Angels Justice and Tucker

  When you look at the beds, see Justie jumping in and out to find just the right one. I actually put pictures of my Angel Kitty on his favorite spot on his kitty tree and on the bed (after it is made) where he liked to sleep during the day. They are still there and I see him every time I look at them. 

  I talk to my special Angels, especially when I miss them. 

I know you are going through difficult days right now- I remember looking at baby food and crying in the grocery store- or seeing his favorite foods and going to buy them for him---I am sure others have similar experiences 

Did Justice send you a sign yet- one of the kittys sends her companion water fowl ! Another one gets three feathers all lined up= We all get different signs from our loved ones

Thinking of you and sending you hugs and kitty kisses

Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

K

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

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tough day.

Hi Kathy, it helps hearing others experiences-thanks so much.:wub:

Before reading ur post I tore a page from my 365 day calendar and there is a picture of a small dog with a superman costume including a cape. After reading ur post I thought DUH! that is a sign from Justice. 

Justie's integrative medicine doctor who also was his acupuncturist truly fell in love with Justie. 2 Christmas' ago she gave him a PetSmart gift card- so I took him shopping. He passed by toys and treats to go to one thing-a bed that had Superman colors (the red and blue) with the "S" emblem. It was on a bottom shelf and he put his paw in it and tried to pull it towards him. Well needless to say I used the gift card on the bed. Every week I took the bed and Justie for acupuncture. Not only was he known as the Energizer Bunny, but everyone at MedVet called him 'Superman". 

The day we got home after losing Justiie I turned on the TV and the movie "Superman' was on. I didn't think I could cry any harder, but I did. A few days ago after dinner Nancy and Carol were playing with Lucky and kept saying he was 'superman'-they didn't know the strong attachment to Superman and Justie- and they never called Lucky that before. I haven't been able to take the superman bed out of the back seat of my car and I placed a jacket over it. When I went to get in the car today the jacket wasn't covering the bed anymore. And now the calendar with the dog in the Superman costume...sounds like signs I have been too grief stricken to notice...

Thanks Kathy for ur help and the hugs and kitties kisses!:wub:

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Hi Cindy

  Who knew dogs wanted to be super heroes ?   Justie is really good at sending signs !  He is probably giving lessons at the Rainbow Bridge right now ! 

 I am going to look through my unpacked (three months now) hurricane papers and find the posts from kitty group and Angel On My Shoulders that might help you a bit. One is about Ghost Kitty- who was known as Simon in his earth life who knows lives with his family - the bird and the other cats can see Ghost Kitty clearly - Ghost Kitty makes sure his family knows he is there- he moves things around -even opens the doors as he did before. 

Hope your weather improves soon- we are due for Florida cold for a few days (40) and no snow. 

 

 

 :catinmoon: Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

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2 hours ago, Beauty's Kathy said:

Hi Cindy

  Who knew dogs wanted to be super heroes ?   Justie is really good at sending signs !  He is probably giving lessons at the Rainbow Bridge right now ! 

 I am going to look through my unpacked (three months now) hurricane papers and find the posts from kitty group and Angel On My Shoulders that might help you a bit. One is about Ghost Kitty- who was known as Simon in his earth life who knows lives with his family - the bird and the other cats can see Ghost Kitty clearly - Ghost Kitty makes sure his family knows he is there- he moves things around -even opens the doors as he did before. 

Hope your weather improves soon- we are due for Florida cold for a few days (40) and no snow. 

 

 

 :catinmoon: Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

LOL. Yes Justie is good at sending signs-mommy just wasn't putting them all together until I read ur post from yesterday.

I would love to read abt other angels and their sending signs to their families. 

Lucky doesn't really seem to miss Justie, but I think it may be becuz he was with Justie when he went to The Bridge. Mandy seems depressed since Justie has been gone. She does sometimes lay where Justie would and seems to look for him. I hope he sends her some signs he hasn't really left her.

You mentioned u talk to ur special angels...I do that too. Right now it's more when I am in tears, but really any time. Since losing Tuck I look out the window every night and tell him Goodnight. Sadly, now I say it to both boyz.

Thanks so much Kathy.

Thanks everyone!

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We took the first Christmas tree down and it was hard becuz i remember so well how when we put it up- it was the first time I saw  confusion in Justie's eyes. He had dementia signs for 16 months before I lost him, but that day is the first time he seemed confused and worried. Once I held him he was back to being a little boy who had dementia but took it in stride. The second tree comes down next week. That will be so very hard becuz his ornaments are on it as well as his stocking is still hung.

Tmw will actually be 30 degrees!!

Thanks friends!!

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Hi Cindy and Angels

  Just letting you know we are thinking of you and hoping you are doing ok. It is very difficult finding the new normal after a loss- even more so when you have so much care giving to do. You find yourself going to get things ready and then remember - and wish you still had all those chores to do. 

Justice and Tucker may you send you a new furry one to love- mine sent me four kittens on his Bridge day - Another kitty send his Mommy several new kitties to take care of. You will know when it happens- they will send you a sign

Good to hear  you are warming up. 30 is weather alert day down here in Florida- we are pretty spoiled. 

Lots of love from Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

 

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46 minutes ago, Beauty's Kathy said:

Hi Cindy and Angels

  Just letting you know we are thinking of you and hoping you are doing ok. It is very difficult finding the new normal after a loss- even more so when you have so much care giving to do. You find yourself going to get things ready and then remember - and wish you still had all those chores to do. 

Justice and Tucker may you send you a new furry one to love- mine sent me four kittens on his Bridge day - Another kitty send his Mommy several new kitties to take care of. You will know when it happens- they will send you a sign

Good to hear  you are warming up. 30 is weather alert day down here in Florida- we are pretty spoiled. 

Lots of love from Kathy and the Magical Beach Kitties

 

Hi, Kathy,

Every day I still find myself thinking I need to be doing something for Justie. It's such a weird feeling becuz I can be in tears one minute grieving for Justice and then suddenly think there is something I need to be doing for Justie. I miss his presence and his snuggles and kisses. :broken_heart:

I do hope someday the boyz send me a pupper who needs me, becuz I sure need a pupper. I do hope it's sooner rather then later though!

We are warming up even more this weekend! It's only going down to 30 tonight, and then tmw and Sunday the high will be 41 and Monday 51!! At least a few warmer days.

love and hugs to u and the kitties!!!

 

Thanks everyone.

 

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