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Jamie K. - IMOM

Chubbles Eaves - 13-year-old Neutered Kitty with Hyperthyroid, Heart Murmer, Nausea/Vomiting, Peridontal Disease

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The past few days with Mr. Chubbs has been interesting. He isn't taking any kitty food what so ever. So we are back to human food. Watered down boiled, shredded, chopped, grinded, EW THIS STINKS Chicken!!!! But he is loving it an eats it so I am all for it. HE has recently started Pooping and Peeing around his litter box... Did some research and got an answer of Arthritis possibly... Looked up symptoms just to make sure they are the same in kitties as in human then started watching him more closely. He has changed a bit.. He gets up slower, limps a bit when he walks, and doesn't move around much. When he was using the litter box he would jump out of it like something bit his tush and run like the wind... He causually saunders out the room not instead of bolting. So sounds like old man is showing more of his age.

He really loves when I rub his hip areas and churps and purrs and curls in a ball. Thank goodness for his pain meds and I put him on GNC Hip and Joint meds for cats. He loves the treats so it will hopefully help him out.

Got a cute little story for you about Chubbs something to end this post with a good note!!!

Since Mr. Fuzzy Pants is being himself with kitty food.. I got him some little breakfast steaks really cheap one day. I was cooking them up and he KNEW those steaks were for him... He sat on the bar the whole time I was cooking them. When I would look at him he would look at me then the steaks then me again as if to say.. I KNOW THOSE ARE MINE!!!! When they were cooked.. I could barely get them kitty cooled and shredded before he was all over them...He chowed down on them as well. I love this beautiful green eyes when he is curious about something.. THis cat.. is... AMAZING.. I wish you all could see him and his cute personality!!!!

Hope all are well and so are your fur babies!!!

Take Care till next time!!

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Today I made the decision to have Chubbles put down. Not a very easy decision to make but bottom line he wasn't going to get better even after the iodine treatment. His mouth was in very bad shape. He wasn't eating because of his mouth. Thank you lall for the love you showed my little baby... God knows he will be missed.

I am sure that some of you will leave your condolences but I hope you will understand I need to heal a bit before I can read them. I do promise that when I can I will be donating to help other babies as IMOM has been great at helping take care of my baby. Thank you soooo much from the bottom of my heart.

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I am so very sorry to hear this, but know that it was the best decision for Chubbles, and made out of your love for him. Take all the time you need to grieve.

I hope you don't mind a prayer for Chubbs.

A Parting Prayer

Dear Lord, please open your gates

and call St. Francis

to come escort this beloved companion

across the Rainbow Bridge.

Assign him to a place of honor,

for he has been a faithful servant

and has always done his best to please me.

Bless the hands that send him to you,

for they are doing so in love and compassion,

freeing him from pain and suffering.

Grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss.

Help me remember the details of his life

with the love he has shown me.

And grant me the courage to honor him

by sharing those memories with others.

Let him remember me as well

and let him know that I will always love him.

And when it's my time to pass over into your paradise,

please allow him to accompany those

who will bring me home.

Thank you, Lord,

for the gift of his companionship

and for the time we've had together.

And thank you, Lord,

for granting me the strength

to give him to you now.

Amen.

- © Brandy Duckworth, 1998

Godspeed, Mr. Chubbs. You were very well loved and will be missed.

:animcnda_lg:

Judy G.

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I'm so very sorry about Chubbles. I know how much you and your family loved him, and he had the best life he could possibly have. You did everything you could possibly do - sadly, sometimes things are out of our control.

You come back and post when you're ready - take all the time you need.

I'm keeping Chubbs, you, and your family in my heart. :animcnda_lg:

Hugs,

Jamie.K

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IMOM had approved to fundraise for Chubbles to have the I-131 iodine therapy treatment for his thyroid, and we pledged $170 to help with his appointment yesterday for his pre-bloodwork and X-rays so the procedure could be scheduled. Sadly, because of the condition of his mouth, he was getting to the point where he was no longer able to eat, and he also had a significant heart murmur due to the issues with his thyroid, so he would not have been able to go under anesthesia.

Here are some photos Chubbles' Mom sent us a couple of days ago:

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We're all very sad at the loss of Chubbles. Rest in peace, sweet boy. You will always be in our hearts.

Jamie.K

Edited by Jamie K. - IMOM

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Please accept my sympathy on your loss. Chubbles was a special guy, and I want to thank you for opening your door and your heart to him...and for doing all that you could to help make his life the best. You're all in my thoughts and prayers.

Diane

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Its not the same without him. I have had a very hard time and have taken to sleeping A LOT to get thru the pain. Jamie said why he was put down. I went into my detail on my facebook post.. Just like all the IMOM'ers and IMOM Angels I had a lot of people pulling for him there too.

This will be a long post.. but if your willing to read and probably cry too.. have at it.

****Fair warning.. Long message and you might need tissues!!!!****

I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest.

It is so hard looking around the house and seeing Chubbles everywhere..

Erasing his likes and don't likes in cat food. Tossing his meds and preparing to clean up things. I keep his blanket near me in hopes his spirit rests there upon it. Before we went to the vet yesterday morning I had brushed his beautiful fur and told him he needed to look handsome for Dr. Barh. When I found the brush I burst into tears because his fur was still in it...

The girls even mourn him. Willow has been extremely loving and mopey. Sapphire keeps checking the carrier like she is hoping he will magically appear. Teeka keeps sniffing my arms and hands I think she smells the death on me and runs.. I find this all funny as they rarely paid him much attention but shows me they loved him too.

I miss his purrs at the slightest touch and his polite meows for his food. Feeding the girls dinner was real hard as this was the first time food without him... I have gone thru the emotions and still going through them. Wishing I had known that it was going to be his final day. He would have gotten the world. But I knew If I brought him home for the weekend I never would of took him back in again.

When I took him to the vet we were to do a work up and get him ready for a Radioactive Iodine Treatment for his Thyroid. I didn't want to release this information till it was 100 percent in the works. We were about 50 percent there. Dr. Barh was looking him over. Checked his ears and found them to be black and waxy she mentioned possible ear mites.. She cleaned his ears (we had been thru this before) then she checked his mouth. I know I have told you that he had stage 4 periodontal disease it had skyrocketed. His teeth were beyond repair pretty much. She said the reason that he didn't eat was because of this mouth. His teeth were all yellow and black streaked his gums blood red and she laid the options out for me where he was concerned.

We could do the blood work and all that needed to be done do the iodine treatment and wait the month out and go in and fix his mouth. She said the treatment would slow him down so he isn't so racy and hungry all the time.. But it wouldn't help him eat. Chances are when they did get to his mouth most if not all of his teeth would be pulled. I tried my best to make a go out of it.. Even if that happened or didn't happen if I kept him on soft food like I have been would it help. I was met with a not really.. Even the pain meds he was on probably wasn't covering the pain fully. I honestly cannot remember what her 2nd suggestion was but I do believe it was do the treatment and just let him live it out. Or the 3rd one.. one that I dreaded.

I still question did I make the right decision. 7 months this baby made us smile and laugh.. 7 months He amazed me in the littlest ways and fought hard to stay with us. I kept saying when he was ready he would let us know. I think he did I just didn't see it..

For days he had been sleeping under Christopher's bed which folds up and I made him a tent with a flap from a sheet to close it up. I fed, watered, and loved him from that tent. Wendsday was different. He came out from hiding. He stayed out most of the day. We had a huge love session and he even laid down with me on the bed till I fell asleep and he got down. I combed his fur out and talked to him. I didn't think anything of it till that faithful moment.

Dr. Barh was great she explained how things worked. I chose to stay thru it all. He was given the sudation shot and put down on the floor for it to work he ran under the chair and hid. I was on the floor with him and I watched as it started to work,. I had my hand under his chin and held his head as it got heavier and eventually limp. (I honestly do not remember what all I said to him.)That was when I got him out from under the chair and held him like a baby and rocked him. Telling him I was so sorry and I loved him. I told Dr. Barh to come in and I kissed him thru the whole thing my fingers on his fast beating heart and I felt it slowly start to slow down and then went to nothing. It was very peaceful. No tremor, no noise, no nothing. Then when she listened to him I finished her sentence.

He's gone...

She said the same thing everyone else has.. I made the right decision he is in a better place. My head knows it, my gut knows it.. but someone needs to explain it to my heart. I feel like I gave up on this kitty who fought so hard to stay with us. I felt like he was made to come to us. I just only hope he will know I didn't give up on him. I wanted him to live without the pain and eat all the fish and chicken he could. I was so hoping before he did die he would get to feel good for a while. I wanted at least a year with him AT LEAST!!

They say God takes back the good ones. I believe this was the case. As much as I love the girls and you all know I do.. He was an awesome cat. A gentleman cat. I will dearly miss his purrs and polite meows. His noises he made in the car when going somewhere.. He will never be forgotten. He was an angel sent to us in a time of need and we did the best we could.

So there you have it. Why I made this horrible but peaceful call. All because some one who owned him before couldn't get him the treatment he needed or even checked for help. Instead toss the baby out and leave him to die! Time heals wounds but like the wound for Zoey, it will never fully heal. He will always be standing on my heart the place he wormed his way into and made it grow daily.

REST IN PEACE HANDSOME BOY!! I love and miss you dearly!!!

Dec. 17th 2013 (when we got him don't know actual Birth date!) - July 31 2014

Then this morning I did this one:

Last night I Prayed for God to give me a sign I did the right thing. To ease my pain a bit.

When I Laid down and snuggled with Chubbles blanket. I got the faintest whiff of his breath (its not a great smell) When I tried to find it again I couldn't it. I didn't want to fall asleep with that near my face or nose. His blanket had just recently been washed it still smells of bleach and softener. I fell asleep crying into it.

When I woke up my 5th or so time I sat up and said.. He hurts no more.. He is eating like he should. He is healthy fat not skin and bones, he is playing now, he is running and jumping sideways like he did. He no longer hides from everyone, he is happy now. The vet as much as I love them wasn't going to hurt him with needles and things they did and I wouldn't torture him with pain meds or steroids or flea medications!

Even though it still hurts like hell I feel a little stronger. Not anything much to jump for joy at though. I will probably still sleep a lot. I will probaly still cry a lot. No telling when I will release his blanket from my hold. I miss his little noises when you touched him and the loud purrs. I wish now I had recorded him more. But everything plays in my mind over and over of the times with him. I feel like I am erasing him out of our lives by putting things away, giving things away and trashing things that we cant keep...I know its not true but that's the feeling I get.

It is so hard to feed the girls cause I see his many cans still left here that he loved... I nearly lost it in Kroger when I got the girls Salmon and Shrimp Grilled as he liked it in the pate form.. it was his favorite next to cod shrimp and sole. Both of these cans I still have...

One day at a time one step at a time. Slowly I will heal but the hardest part is watching Willow mostly.. stick her head under Christopher's bed look then back out. Sapphire has quit staring at the carrier but she has been extra demanding for love. just like willow too. Teeka is coming back around to me.. she sleeps at my feet and meows softly to get my attention. The kids have taken it pretty well... I am the one that is falling apart.. my mom too.

BUT.. time is a healer and it will heal our hearts and everyone else too who is hurting in someway.. Even though I will never forget him. I wish the hurt would ease up more than it has.

We still have a long way to go on healing but.. As I said in the above passage I am a bit better today. Its all really raw and I struggle to get thru the day without looking for his food bowl or even checking to see if he made the litter box.

I think God answered my prayer on if I did the right thing or not. I believe in reincarnation and I begged Chubbles to come back into our lives again how ever he saw fit and be healthy and give us another try. It will be his choice though! Till then I know he will be sitting at the rainbow bridge with my rabbit Zoey and my Dove Flutter having a grand time being what he should be healthy and happy! Time heals all and this too shall heal and pass but never gone forever.

Thank you again to EVERYONE who prayed for him, loved him, helped him, and supported him as well as us his family. We really wouldn't of made it this far without the help of IMOMs. My God bless each and everyone of you and your fur babies as well!!!

Edited by Spiralweldpipe

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I'm so Very Very sorry!!!!! The decisions we are forced to make kills us each time we have to make it to let them go, u pray and pray and pray hoping that the next day will be different, that when u awake it was all just a nightmare, that your baby is happy, healthy,. Take ur time stay in bed, mourn ur baby, have the bad, terrible day's, than remember the love, the joy, the smiles, and the hope. Always remember the hope. Ur girl's hope mama will be ok, ur girl's hope mama's heart will heal, ur girl's hope mama will come back to them. My hope is that this may help, it won't stop the pain nor easy the pain, only to let you know many ppl care and Hope you will take time to heal!! Again I'm so Very Very sorry!!!!

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I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you are finding each day to be a little bit easier. Everyone here understands your pain and we are all here for you. :rose::broken_heart:

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I am so very sorry for your loss. But I feel that, in some ways, Chubbles is still with you. Look up in the sky and find the brightest star- that will be Chubbles shining down on you with love and gratitude for the loving home you let him come to know. His light is telling you he is at Rainbow Bridge surrounded by all those that went before. And they are all running free and playing and waiting for the day they are reunited once again with those that loved them so dearly...... :animcndc_sm:

Edited by Cindy.k IMOM

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I'm so sorry for your loss, it is very clear how much love Chubbles had in his life.

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Hi,

I am so sorry for your loss, I know Chubbles meant the world to you and I'm sure you were the world to your baby. Because of you he had tremendous love in his life, I'm sure he is looking down on you now wishing that your pain would go away. You were a great mom to him and tried everything you could, I really wish he could have stayed with you. May your sweet boy rest in peace and my time heal your heart :heart:

Laura/IMOM

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Thank you everyone for the kind words!!

It has been two weeks since I made that decision and it still feels like yesterday...

I don't cry as much but my heart hurts.. I still sleep with his blanket.. Every night before I go to sleep I will say come on Chubbles come sleep with me here is your blanket. I ask my little cat Teeka where Chubbles is and sometimes she will look in a direction and stare.. makes me wonder does she see his spirit.

I have had 3 things happen that makes me know he is ok or near us... I can swear up and down and all around that I saw his beautiful white fur out of the corner of my eye one night.. I looked and it was gone.. Keep in mind our other kitties are all dark colored other than their bellies or middle parts. Another night after calling out Chubbles come lay down I swear I felt pressure on my arm like he would do to wake me up to feed him.. that made me cry.. Just a couple of nights ago I had drifted off to sleep and clear as day I saw him walking around my sons bed like he did his tail down prancing.. I literally jumped out of that dream and looked for him but it dawned on me.. he is gone... :(

I completed his memorial which was quite therapeutic to work on... It's a wooden plaque with the word Love on the top, a wooden kitty cut out that is almost painted like him, his paw print from the vet (which I painted pink and black like his little paws), his name and date we took him in and the date we put him down on it. I painted the plaque the closest color I could get to his eyes.. He had beautiful eyes. I miss looking into them. I also painted a wooden box with a heart cut out for his picture the same color and a deep red.. for the heart. I see it everyday and touch his little paw print when I feed our betta.

Everyday it gets a little easier but I never go a day with out singing his song and thinking of him. I miss his stares with I would be petting him then tickle his "Pants" or the back of his legs.. they were more chaps than pants but I called them his Old man pants. I miss running my fingers down his spine and watching him curl into a ball and hear his loud purr. I miss hugging him when he jumped up on the counter and kissing his head and cheek when I was giving him medicine telling him I was sorry I was torturing him.

As much as I miss him ... I am happier he doesn't hurt anymore. I know he is much happier as well.

I just wanted to give you an update on our healing and again thank IMOMers and the angels for pulling for our sweet boy!!!

THANK YOU!!!!!

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